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Date:2010-06-22 15:46

seriously why do i feel like i'm doing something wrong by going to dinner with the girls?

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Date:2010-06-14 06:47


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Date:2010-06-13 20:37

New phone. Weee!

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Date:2007-02-24 02:40
Subject:another drink.

As the title says I'll be right back, I'm getting another drink I'm losing the buzz... O.K. Bacardi Superior. Awesome! I think I should have drank a rum and coke instead of a straight shot of it. When you're drinking and you're getting that "ugh" feeling don't take a straight shot of any hard alcohol. Evil. Pretty good for a drunken post huh?! ha! I'm good like that. Plus I'm not shit faced.

Yay for alcohol semi making you feel better about things. Or t least masking the pain.

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Date:2007-02-23 20:30
Subject:my sancturary.

Originally uploaded by idleabstraction.
I've noticed that ever since my dad showed me where my grandparents were buried that I tend to go there when either I'm having a breakdown or major anxiety. It's just so peaceful there. No one bothers you. No one asks if you're O.K. or gives you looks cause you're crying. They just figure it's cause of the grave you're visiting. It's not filled with people and loud. It's quiet with the exception of the wind, birds and occasional vehicles driving past.

I went there today. I cried on the way there. I cried there. I also cried half way home until I couldn't cry anymore. I ran myself dry. I have a headache now. I just want to go to a secluded beach and get drunk off out of my mind, worse then Saturday. I don't want to be bothered by anyone. I just want to numb all this crap. I don't want to hurt anymore. I don't want to have my friends hurt anymore. I'm so fucked right now it's not even funny.

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Date:2007-02-19 13:10
Mood: pissed off

Guys fucking suck.


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Date:2007-02-01 00:13
Subject:sorting photos.

I was sorting through my photos on my computer and getting rid of the doubles I have. Why I had so many doubles I have no clue. I did how ever come across some cute photos of my good friend Chey's daughter.

what a cutie.Collapse )

I love this little girl to pieces.

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Date:2007-01-09 22:46


I may cross post every now and again.

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Date:2007-01-05 08:18
Subject:Erin Kehau.

If you ever see this. Email me. Same old email Lana_girlathotmaildotcom.

If anyone [anyone meaning friends] has myspace add me: idleabstraction.

that's it for now.


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Date:2006-12-15 15:07
Subject:Friday Five: Crushes

OK so I've been "watching" Friday Five for a long time and this is the first one I've actually done. Lazy? I think so.

1) Who was your first crush? Casey Rose. At least that's what I remember, maybe it was someone else.
2) Who do you currently have a crush on now? No one really.
3) Have you ever become so obsessed with a crush, you went to extreme measures to find out everything about him/her? Nope.
4) Has your crush ever turned out to be your future girlfriend/boyfriend? Nope, but then again, I'm not really the dating type. I'm more of the crushing type. :D
5) Did a best friend ever turn into more than just a friend? Nope. But he does like me as more then just a friend. At least he did last year.

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Date:2006-11-28 00:14
Subject:This one is for you my lovely Angela. :D
Mood: hungry

Soo, what have I been up to? I have semi-cleaned my room and set up my computer. I cleaned just enough to set it up to be exact. That's how bad I wanted to play on it. It's sad.. I know. BUT today I finally got it hooked up so I have internet on it. I'm so not use to it, that I did't know what to do with myself or it for that matter. I pretty much just checked my email, filckr, myspace, and livejournal. Other than those sites, I haven't been in the internet scene in a while. I don't know what sites to look at anymore. I wish Punogre.com and Nossnaj.com was still around. I miss them.

Other than that I've been pretty much up to the usual. Work, eat, sleep, and go out every now and again. Saturday night was fun. I went out to a club that pretty much had all Asians and I felt so out of place. That is until my friend Wilson came AND around five Purdue football players. I didn't feel so damn tall and out of place after that. haha. The Latino looking one was pretty darn cute too.

I love you Ang! Cheer up woman. I hope you're feeling better!

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Date:2006-11-15 22:28
Subject:Noteworthy. Please spread & help.
Mood: sympathetic

o1] Mike Schmid & band. Tour van burned to bits.
  So my sister has a fliker site and one of her contacts is on one Mike Schmid. This man and his band were on tour and driving when their van startedon fire. The lost everything. From insruments to cameras, cds, ipods. Pretty much eveything that they had in their possession on tour.
  Please help and donate. The photos from the tragdey & link to their paypal donation is in post.

mike schmid @ myspace

o2] Juan Mann & his Free Hugs Campaign.
  This man is amazing. The world talks about doing things like this. This man didn't talk about doing it, he just did it. why can't the whole world be like him?


freehugscampaign @ myspace

Free Hugs Campaign. @ YouTube

One man.   One love.

P.S. ANGELA I hope you are feeling better. I you!

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Date:2006-10-28 22:07
Subject:Day Off = Boredom
Mood: sick

Yesterday on my day off I was woken up by a phone call from CJ at 11:20 AM. He was stoppig by to pick up something. After he stopped by I played around on the laptop for a little while and then turned it off because I was getting bored looking around on the internet. So I bothered my sister a bunch of times to wake up and do something with me, but I just got a blank look from her as she drifted back to sleep. I sat there for a moment to think about the things I could do and came to the conclusion that I would take a drive. I endded up driving out to north shore and taking some snapshots with my camera...

my little storyCollapse )

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Date:2006-10-26 23:28
Subject:More Sepia Photos.
Mood: hot

So I'm digging the Sepia and wide function of my new camera. Let's get to the stuff. linkCollapse )

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Date:2006-10-24 00:41
Subject:New Digital Camera.
Mood: tired

A couple of weeks ago I bought a digital camera, Canon Powershot A30. Granted it's nothing spectacular, but it's a fun little piece of equitment. Here's some pictures I took with it. pictures.Collapse ) I'm still learning how to use it. So expect more.

p.s. Ang I hope you're feeling better soon.

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Date:2006-10-18 21:32
Subject:I miss my computer.
Mood: dirty

Mid October of last year I moved out with roommates. Now a year later I'm back with my parents and majority of my stuff is still packed away(including my computer). What use to be my room and still is considered my room is fill with my mom and sister's stuff. Therefore I've been alternating sleeping from bed to floor. I want my room back. It's too hard sharing the livingroom with my sister. I want to use my computer most of all. I'm just happy I got a truck again.

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Date:2006-10-17 00:41
Subject:One love.
Mood: guilty

So tonight a friend of mine that i was talking to on AIM sent me this link. As we chat we randomly send each other links. Usually it's him sending me link from youTube and what not, but every once in a while I'll throw one back at him. I'm getting off the subject though. So one of the many links he sent me tonight was of one Juan Mann and his Free Hug campaign in Australia. I thought it was cool. Granted I'd be weirded out if I saw that on the streeit's t here in Hawaii. All the questions in the world would come to my mind. But I think it's awesome that there are people out there that look past all that and gave him a hug. I'm sure it made someones day a happier one.

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Date:2006-10-09 21:11
Subject:If I should choose to fall apart.
Mood: tired

So update. This past month hasn't been the best, but I'm still alive.

  • Car accident. I totaled my truck. I walked away from it with a tiny cut and a couple of bruises. No broken bones, and the bloody nose stopped before I left the scene. Sad for El Capitano and me, I'll miss him.

  • UTI. I went five days of not knowing why I had sharp pains in my stomach. I kept telling myself it would go away, finally I wised up and went to the doctor. I got medication and the pain was gone.

  • Process of moving out started. I started to move out and move back with the rents. It was fun while it lasted but I'm happy to be home.

  • Moving out party. This night was fun. People I rarely get to see came. Fun times. Last time I drank too. I'm thinking about quiting.

  • Allergic reaction. After about a week of taking the medication I got a full body rash and a fever of 103.4 F. Needless to say I stop taking the medication and it was not fun at all. The rash slowly went away after five days.

  • Process of movig out endded. I have one word STRESS. Next time I rent, I'm cleaning every single weekend, I'm making sure the roomies actually read and follw the rules. If I have roomies that is.

  • Food poisoning. Exactly what it says. I got it and I was neautious for three straight days. It would seem like I was starting to like going to Kaiser, when really I don't. Although Waipio Clinic, a very nice facility.

  • I got a truck! Yep, after all the stress of moving and getting sick was gone and done, I looked online and set up an appointment at Honolulu Ford. I was not expecting to actually get a truck that day. It just kind of happened. I swear I was just going to look and see what was available. It's a white Ford Ranger again, but two years newer and a more basica model. No CD player, just a radio. And my biggest gripe, more middle fold down councel on my bench seat. Now to name it, probably Jonior Boy- in the spirirt of local-ness naming. ha.

  • So that's pretty much my past month in a nutshell. Time to go move my truck. :D

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    Date:2006-08-06 20:20
    Subject:This is getting ridiculous.
    Mood: bored

    So apparently I look part Spanish//Mexican/Cuban, Latin basically. I don't think I do, but it seems lately people have been either asking if I am or telling me that I am. The reason this is on my mind, is because I was looking at pictures from Friday night at The Shack, and one of the guys thought I was. I don't even remember how it came up but it did. So my question here is Do I or Don't I look like am?

    Here's some random pictures to help with that desicion:

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    The last one is from that night at The Shack.





    P.S. Thanks Noeee for a few of the pictures I used. :X

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    Date:2006-08-02 21:49
    Subject:my very own compy.

    I so need my own computer. Anyone want to donate a dollar to the fund? haha. I kid. I know I have to get serious about it though. I really need to start saving.

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